Well, I am genuinely sorry you feel that way.
I know what this is about, and I am truly sorry you still feel that way about me, after all these years. In all the time I've been here, I want to let you know that, contrary to belief perhaps, I in fact admired your extreme wealth of knowledge and experience and that it was never my intention to upstage you as a satellite TV professional.
You are the best in the world at what you do. Fact. You have years of experience and nobody can ever take that away from you. You have the respect and admiration from all your peers.
Yeah, I probe and I poke and I take a dig - all in the name of discussion leading to knowledge. I love satellite TV, I went to any lengths to find out the stuff I was craving to know, that nobody else wanted to tell me. I cannot explain the frustration of being a younger person who knows there is information lying tucked away somewhere about stuff that was around before even he was, and trying to get hold of it.
Yeah, I'm an apple-cart upsetter, because if there is even 1% of doubt in my mind that in a cart of green apples, there is a red one, I want to see if it is so.
I became too obsessed. I wanted to know too badly. It ate me alive from the inside knowing I might never find out.
Well at this point, I know what happens to people like me. And, I want you to know, that I'm totally OK with it and I was always expecting it at some point. I am happy that I was able to enjoy what I experienced on Austech for the last 3 years and a bit, and it was truly a priviledge being here. When admin says there is "none quite like austech" he is absolutely spot on.
I know people like me will never last long in any social setting, and almost like a fugitive trying to evade capture, I knew it would just be a matter of time before my game is up. And I know opening my mouth now I've pretty much sealed my own fate.
And I know what happens now...You have to do what you have to do, and that's make an example out of me. And that's good, because getting rid of the trash and sending out a warning keeps Austech the place it is. If you have to use me to get the message across, then I'm happy I can be of assistance.
Before we get into the formalities of the whole thing, I just wish to do one last thing...
And that's to say thank you to all the fantastic people on here that I've had the priviledge of knowing since 2014. I've really enjoyed being here and I thank you all for everything you've ever shared with me. Guys like Enf, Hazman, Trash, Lsemmens, SS Dave, Keith, Rick, Cmangle, man just too many to mention, all of you guys who have made me laugh and lighten my day over the past several years...thank you. You guys were always better friends to me than any people I met in real life. Hell, even members of my own family.
I don't want to say I love you, you know because that's kind of gay...
But, I love you, you know, in a manly sort of way.
And, all the guys like GordonS_1942, Tristen, Apsattv and OSIRUS who never hesitated to share all their wealth of knowledge and tell a story or two, I thank you all so much. Especially to Gordon, it reminded me so much of when I was a kid, and I used to sit around the campfire with the grownups, listening to their stories, instead of playing ballgames with the other naughty brats. Yeah, I became the drinks-serving boy as an "entrance fee", but those were some of the happiest times in what turned out to be a train-smash of a miserable life. I thank you for taking me back to those days.
I learnt so much from you guys. I was always into Aussie sat TV, and when I found this forum, I was like "Man, I can't believe it!" I had found a genuine place of genuine people who were proper experts in the very thing I've always wanted to know about, and it was like finding a treasure chest in a shipwreck. Such an amazing feeling. And I did. I learned so much. And words cannot express what it means.
And a special thanks to admin, for keeping this whole thing going. When you began to share some of your life experiences on here, I began to see the picture of a man who fought so much adversity to stand by what he believed in, and a man that took so many shots to keep alive something that he knows others enjoy. You genuinely never give up. Like your passionate endeavour with Linton Jr. I don't meet many people like you, but when I do, it's nothing short of inspirational. It definitely taught me to keep on believing and keep on fighting in my own life.
I love you guys man.
But just like in real life, reality caught up with me, and one cannot just immerse oneself in one's hobbies all the time, no matter how enjoyable. It took only one real-world thing to prove what a weak person I am, and now the fun is over. The proverbial single bullet that sank the ship.
I am genuinely going to miss this. I wish you all here on Austech a great future, and may it go well with all of you. Till perhaps we meet again some day.
Originally Posted by Dr_Mohs
Well, I am genuinely sorry you feel that way.
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